Wow! I haven't posted in 3 years! Eeeesh! Welp, it hasn't been because I haven't been thinking! Hahaha! I think this a pretty kool way to return though because for the last few years I have been in a state of confusion because of a crisis of identity.
In 2013, I invested my entire life into a "calling", which was also my source of income. When I was released from the job, almost a year later, I suffered many losses, which included my sense of identity and purpose. Because I had invested so much into "doing" the thing I was "called" to do, I had no clue on how to live life afterwards.. I chased and searched for opportunities which only led to more rejection and feelings of hopelessness. I felt like Elijah in the wilderness when he ran from Jezebel. I was ready to die. I strayed from God, which was the worst thing to do because He was sure to be the One who could help me regain my sense of purpose and being. Just recently, I asked God what did He want me to do...for Him...as in what should I be doing with my life. His response to me was, "Stop trying to impress me". Yoooo....I was speechless. Here I am thinking that I need to be doing something and God's like "I wish you would STOP doing THAT!" My thinking was that the only way I could get back into God's good grace was to do "spiritual" things.. I was treating God like He was "man" because that's how man thinks..."if you love me, then you would show me". That's soooo off when it comes to God because He made a decision to love us despite us when He sent His only begotten Son to die for us while we were sinners. After spending some time listening to God, I realized that God simply wants me to "BE". That's the same thing He wants from you. He wants you to "BE" His daughter and son. So many of us have a crisis of identity because we have associated our identity with "doing" something spiritual. So when we don't get the opportunity to "do" those things, we feel inadequate, useless, and overlooked. It's in God that we live and move and have our being (Acts 17:28}. Our identity is hidden in God (Colossians 3:3}. So, you are called to "BE" before you are called to "DO". As you "become", it will be second nature for you to "do". You are not your calling. You are God's child. Blessings and Favor PEP
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